Working with children keeps me sane. Sane to the extent that their honesty and innocence is refreshing. They rarely hold grudges and speak their mind. I get on with kids. As adults we too speak our minds but we can hold a grudge, my word can we hold a grudge.
Perhaps I lack adult interaction actually I know I do. Therefore I love the connections and friendships I have made via Facebook, Twitter and through my sporadic blogging.
These last few weeks there has been a lot of angst and friendships breaking up, harsh words and bitterness. I have emails requesting I read a blog posts and put across my opinion. Friends are asking me whose side I’m on; “Did you read that post?”. The answer is no, I have no concrete idea as to what has actually happened the general gist covers; feminism, mental health and mummy bloggers, the emails ask me where I stand they want me to add my voice to these topics.
I am not standing, I am sitting on the fence. I don’t have the energy after a long day to even form a constructive sentence. I don’t want to take sides.
You may consider me a weak person because I sit on the fence and don’t say much. I’m ok with that.
I fight battles during the day as an advocate for children and their families. I don’t want to fight anymore when I get home.
My friendships with you are real, genuine and honest. I am not prepared to dump a friend because you have had a disagreement over a blog post. I don’t want to lose your friendship but I can’t fight your battle or words for you.
We are a passionate, strong and a vocal bunch of writers. We live different lives. We have different perspectives.
“You need to speak up and say something its like being back at high school” I spend a fair about of time in high schools and in my eyes the social media playground can be a lot more ruthless and hurtful. Our words come from years of experience. A teenager’s words are navigating through growing up. We are grown up.
“I can’t believe you follow ….” Why is it had to believe that I follow and read a variety of blogs and have made friendships with a diverse group of people? My real life friendships are all diversified too. What I read and follow is only a small part of who I am. It does not mean that I agree 100% with everything and everyone I follow.
I’m all for opinions and wanting to learn and understand more. There is always a bigger picture. We may not agree or even wish to see if we can comprehend where someone else is coming from that’s our own choice. The bigger picture may make no sense on specific topics I get that too.
Sometimes I sit on the fence because intellectually I lack the grammar to be taken seriously. The big words don’t come easily to me. I know what I want to say yet struggle to get the emphasis of what I want to say down, without sounding like a child.
So I sit on the fence a lot, I can observe from up here and I am learning heaps and I hope my friendships survive as I don’t plan to jump off for now. It’s part of who I am, working with all types of behaviour has made me sit down.
What about you are you a fence sitter? There is room on my fence if you ever need a break.