New Year, New ME ? NO still me ……..
I’m feeling overwhelmed reading New Year resolutions, I’m overwhelmed and they are not even my resolutions. Some lists are really long, some say 2012 is going to be the most amazing year ever, some have so many new resolutions that I would dread getting up on the 1st of January 2012 with so much weighing on Me changing over night.
I still haven’t caught up on a list of things I was hoping to get done before tonight, but have relished every single moment of time out of the office and time with my family.
Of course each to their own, if you like New Year resolutions, well brilliant, if it works for you then go for it. I’m more of a visualisation poster type of girl, there are heaps on google to give you ideas.
Me, well I know change does not happen overnight when I set too many to changes to aim for then I start to fall at the first hurdle. I know I cannot change many things and my life in 2012 has to reflect this.
The only change I am making is a mental change, in accepting the Mum’s Alzheimer’s is worsening, that they will be a lot more tougher days ahead, a lot more tears and my patience has to increase even more. I am OK with this in my head, my heart well that just aches everyday with mum as she is but this just proves I’m human.
New Year- New Words
I am instead of having New Year resolutions, focusing on words. My words for this year are simple; Kindness , Patience, Laughter and Resilience. I think if I can mange a good dose of these everyday in my day then things will look much brighter a lot more often.
Kindness doesn’t mean always giving, it also means being kind to myself. Kindness can simply be a smile, a hug or listening really well to someone else’s needs. Kindness is done voluntarily with nothing expected in return.
Patience, this I need my the truckload not just with mum, in reteaching everyday every single routine from walking to eating but patience with myself. Considering behaviour is my passion and I seem to understand it pretty well, it’s always hard to step back and see and analyse my own behaviour – but I’m getting better in doing what I write about.
Laughter, this I want to do everyday, I want big belly laughs with my, hubby, mum and kids, Mr 6 is very good at making me laugh and so is Miss 15. Twitter and reading blogs has had me laughing so hard, that hubby thinks I’m slightly away with the fairies.
Resilience to emotionally handle all that 2012 has in store. There will be some great moments but realistically I know there will be some not so great ones. I want to accept how I feel at any given moment and not beat myself up over my own feelings.
New Year – Thank You
If I had time, which I don’t as I have to get mum up and go and get groceries for tonight’s party I would thank every single one of you personally who has interacted with me this year, whether you are a family I work with, Blogging friends, Twitter friends, Face book Likers and new friends made in the virtual world who I’ve now met in the real world, Thank You for being part of my life and listening to me bang on about behaviour, bad jokes, my mum, my kids, blogging and Eminem. Thank you too for all your help, advice and for being there just when I needed a hug.
Thank you to every child and teen who has let me into their life this year, I have learnt so much from you all. One of the the biggest factor being that you all want time with your parents, time with no set plans necessarily just time to be – yes teens want time with you too.
To my friends, I’ve hardly seen this year I’m sorry but I’ll be hopefully more available this year, to my hubby thanks for having my back and loving me as I am , to my children Miss 15 and Mr 6 – you are my world and mum simply I love you.
Signing off and keeping it real, well as real as I can. Taking the first month of the New Year off to be with mum and finish some guest posts I owe, I’ll be back soonish.
Have a the best night you can, don’t change too much in 2012